Day: 253 Living with chronic pain is a difficult thing. It causes depression. Big heavy clouds weigh down on you and paralyze motion. Rotator cuff surgery right after breast cancer surgery is not advised but for me with the two tears, it was necessary. I’m working to get off of the heavy pain medicine they had me on, as well as other meds, and it’s not easy. Anxiety, restlessness in your body, spine, legs, and depression are some of the visitors. You become hyper-aware of your body and all it feels.
My tumors were both estrogen and progesterone positive. My own hormones were feeding my illness. Taking the Tamoxifen to bring on menopause comes with all the symptoms of ‘the change.’ I was told because of my age (on the young side for breast cancer) and the type, if I don’t take the medicine, my chances of a reoccurrence of cancer in my breast or elsewhere in my body goes up from 10% to 20%: one in five. Ouch. So, I guess I just bite the bullet and take the medicine. One in eight women will get breast cancer. I was one of those eight. The thought of one in five is not pleasant. These are some rainy days.
I lived in Seattle for five years. When I tell people that I didn’t think it was so rainy, they don’t believe me. It seemed no different than living in Pennsylvania. Well, I looked up the facts and the rainiest cities are:
City Inches Millimeters
|New Orleans, Louisiana||62.7||1592|
|New York, New York||49.9||1268|
|Providence, Rhode Island||47.2||1198|
|Virginia Beach, Virginia||46.5||1182|
|Raleigh, North Carolina||46.0||1169|
Seattle isn’t even on the list. And, if you look at the number of rainy days there are five cities that are ahead of Seattle:
|Rochester, New York||167|
|Buffalo, New York||167|
I have always said that I prefer partly cloudy days because you can see the contrast of the blue with the clouds. Many of these rainy days were really just partly cloudy. It’s a manner of perspective. It’s been mostly cloudy but occasionally the clouds part. I look forward to more partly cloudy and sunny days ahead. They are coming. Sometimes I can feel it in my bones.